I feel like I'm going blind

I feel like I'm going blind, every day things getter harder and harder to see. I can't see my computer screen on larger font settings, I can't always read my phone or read a piece of paper. I went to a coffee shop with work friends yesterday and in the crowd I couldn't see them, so I stepped to the side and waited until someone came to get me.

I'm scared.

My psychologist and the HR team at work have suggested that I start making contact with vision loss organisations now so that I can familiarise myself with technology or other assistance aids. I'm not ready for this. I don't know what to do to make myself see again. I'm not prepared to lose my independence. I want to drive myself to work and I want to be free to do things, to watch tv, to enjoy my favourite tv series or to watch the sunrise. I don't want to not be able to see and I can't find the courage to call a support agency.

I am not at peace with what is ...

Miss Nat

xoxo